HH ~ Hassles and Huggles

I deleted the shape shifters blog today, its not that I have totally given up on losing weight its more that as i seem to be the only one posting in it, it made more sense to combine it with this one. So there we have it.

I am thinking seriously of splitting the leaves Blog, one for the Elf story and one for the ranger, think that will make it easier to follow. I must somehow get motivated again. I am hoping this is the start of it. Spring is on its way and I would dearly love to see my second book finished.

I am also thinking I might be tempted to draw up a collection of short writings and poems to make a small book of Hobbit humours, thats not humour in the funny sense as such but in a wide reaching feelings type thing. Well I'll mull that idea over for a bit.

I still of course have my website, need to update a little there and I am now seriously considering re working the news page. I do not like its layout thus far.

Well thats about all the time I have right now , Almost work time, oh boy!!
I will try hard to update more often tho.

Huggles

Well Its been a long time since I posted in this Blog, poor thing probably wonders what the heck is going on and then some. I been really down, mostly it was post holiday blues, not surprising really seeing as I was so well treated in the US, and then to be home I just felt so alone, and yet I have my son, I know, but there are many kinds of lonliness and a son no matter how wonderful cannot fill them all.

So there we are, another thing that has had me sad is the ending of the trilogy, of course I knew it would end but it just saddens me that finally its over. I am going to miss the hype. I know many of the members at CoE will most likely drift away. I shall miss them, especially those I have become friends with. Will they keep in touch, at the moment its not looking good, but then I am an impatient hobbit sometimes especially where friends are concerned.

I have been struggling with work, I no longer find it fulfilling, there's some resentment over the broken ankle, a nagging worry that I am going to end up crippled in a few years, by which time it will be too late to claim compensation, truthfully I don't even know if I would be entitled. Then again there's a part of me, a loyal part that says suing them isn't the best way forward.

Sigh. I wonder what the future holds for me. At the moment I could hide away and cry, its just I know thats not going to help at all. Thing is I really dont know what will help. I wish I had someone to hug me right now.

Okays being practical there's no one to do that and so I shall do what I have done in the past and pretend, Elrond is my hero when the night get too lonely to bear.

Well here's an interesting thing, a post from San Diego, where I am currently in lodging with Belle and FFNH, such sweet people to take in a stray hobbit, and they have kitties too. Pippin is a real sweet heart and tomasina is such a sweet thing, we are still hoping for Disney Land on Friday, and of course the big event saturday will be so much fun. I really cant wait!!

A couple of other thoughts one is wolves the other is Beleg, the first I'll hold on the second I will say hey kid I miss ya heaps I hope your exams are not dragging ya down too bad, if they are just look to Aaron and BS and know that they are there caring as I am. If its only in my thoughts I know you will be fine and come through with out things being too awful, no matter how they may seem. You are a special lady and deserve to have the most wonderful Christmas, bless you hun, see ya soon.

Oh I had a thought the other day which I think I'll share with you, Strangers are friends you are yet to meet. Life can be very sweet when you find people care, I was lucky enough to learn that recently when some of my realm members wrote a special story for me, coupled with the wonderful gesture from Belle, I know I am one very lucky Hobbit.

Its been an odd week and Its getting odder, there should be reasons to celebrate but instead I am full of trepidation, :( I dunno I should be getting all excited for LA but at the moment I am under a huge cloud of doubt.

Thats about it really, the diets not going so well, its entirely my fault too, I've gained two pounds this week, gahhh!! I feel like a good cry and yet well it could be my cycle again, if it is then I got a couple of days until I'll feel better, I just feel tired and run down.

I am lost to what I should be doing at CoE these days, I still mod of course but as to feeling a part of it, well sadly I don't any longer. I am sort of hanging in there hoping things will come good again, I don't know what I'll do if it doesn't happen. There was a time I thought CoE would always be there, but now sigh!! well we shall see.

So there we go just a short post to keep those who are wondering, yet I doubt anyone bothers to look anymore. :(

Eeeks another neglected blog smcks head (but gently cause I been busy) Well then lots to tell, the web site is growing, I've a few more things to add to the poetry pages and then hopefully I will be able to concentrate more on the Dragond Den, I am beginning to panic that I may lose a lot of stuff stored elsewhere, I really must make efforts to save all that information, so this is a job for the weekend.

I have to write a letter to Beleg, I have promised long enough so I am posting here to remind me Letter for Beleg okays that should do it.

More News I have changed online jobs, I have relinquished my position as an Rp Mod, in the end I got way too stressed, I didnt need that and the RP Forum deserved something better than a stressed out HH.

But the news is still good as I was given the chance to Mod the new Green Dragon Inn. Yay so I am pretty excited, as well as a little nervous, this will be the second new forum I have modded from scratch, looking forward to seeing this one grow too.

In case you are wondering where all this is happening, its at the Council of Elrond, link in the links section. I took out the tag board fron the Dragons Den, I decided that it just didn't want to fit neatly beneath the links and having the archives way down at the bottom of the page was just silly.

I am hoping soon to move the whole of that blog onto my website, I know that will be one less Blog, but I do have all these others and from the way things are going it will be a time before I can get more on my own site.

So yupp looks like I am going to be pretty busy.

Well If you read my last entry you'll see I changed it, things being that I dont need to worry anyone, this is just a temporary setback brought about by my own stupidity. Okays so that said what can I tell you. Well I am looking into a very empty room where friends are concerned, but I know they have their own lives so I am not going to dwell on it. They know where I am and when they come say Hi they will be as welcome as always. I am not going to chase for their friendship, I am a good friend, and they know it.

I got to got out early today so I cant do much around the site, I am a little tired of things there, sounds bad but I was a LOT tired earlier, seems thats going to stay pretty much the way it is for now at least. So whats really bugging me, its the constant drain of not feeling useful.

I know I do a damm good job in the RP Forum, and I appreciate all the Hard work others do, yet they don't seem to know this, or choose not to acknowledge it. If I make a suggestion its always seen as criticism, thats not fair, its not me and for Eru's sake they should know that by now.

For example I made a suggestion it was time to change the name of one of the forums just a suggestion, yea well okays so they have the right to say no to change. But where were their suggestions?

okay I am done here, if I had more time I'd air a few more things but thats not possible right now, so I'll quit on a bad note for once, tho to me its good I actually mamaged to set down how I am feeling.

Well here we go time to write another entry in the ole diary, sort of keep everyone up to date on hibbit life, If I could sleep for a week it might just help, I feel so very tired, not because I am not sleeping I just have a few personal probs, but like before i'll get past it.

I found out why the diet was stalled after this week it should be better again, though I did waver for one day, I just hope that waver wasn't too serious. Yea I think I like this diary better than my LJ one, I get to be honest here, well I am there too its just I am more reserved over there.

I had thought we could add images here now but I cant see a way to do it, what a pity, never mind, you'd hardly want to see too many of my pics lol. One day Ill take a good one. I am looking for an Elvish background I think one to go with my Elf song.

I had so many ideas for it but have yet to find the one I want, sometimes you just have to wait. mmm I dont think I have a link here to my site, I might have to fix that, perhaps tomorrow when I'm not so very tired.

I am going to try getting an early night tonight, want to try to see Beleg if I can, I sure miss her, but I had a lovely am today chatting to Aruin, hee he's a great guy. :)
right well thats pretty much it for now. Hugs to all.